city of blinding lights;

emo shits,

it's already into a new month,
yet it felt as though i still live in october.
the weariness, the tiredness, the stress;
somewhat ate into me more than i could imagine.
am i really the cut out for that, i wonder.
perhaps i should just give up,
and remain as what i was in the past.
everything was just a dream,
a too-good-to-be-true dream i told myself.
wake up, vivian! wake up!

it seems wrong to have felt that way,
maybe it wasn't even right to start with.
i hope You could be pushing me on from behind,
giving me Your strength, Your courage, Your support.

i really am tired, i really am.

posted by babies- @ 1:59:00 AM